If I had a lot of money, all the music throughout the day of our wedding would be live piano or string quartet. But since that’s not possible, I’m on Amazon listening to different wedding piano-light strings type of songs. I don’t even know if the guests will notice. It’ll be good background noise so it’s not awkward while guests are waiting. 18 more days…

Shit. I just got sad that I’ll be moving out of the house in a few weeks… married and living on my own, even though I’ve been away for a bit. Shit shit shit. Shit.

I’m excited… and sad. How the heck…

I deactivated my Facebook. It’s temporary I think. It’s just that, I feel sometimes… whatever. Not worth talking about here in an open forum. 

Definitely it was hard. My heart fluttered a bit… Hah. Crazy huh? First time ever since… early 2000-something. Whatever.

It’s going to fly by, I’m sure, because I have so much I need to take care of before then. But at the same time, it can’t come soon enough. I cannot wait to marry my fiancé. It’s been a hard and hectic road these last two years… But finally almost here is what I always wanted for the both of us since the first year we met.

I want to write my own vows, but I’m afraid I’ll just cry throughout the whole ceremony. These days–umm months… I’ve been such a sap. I get emotional over every little thing good and bad. So I’m sure there is no way I could get through personalized vows. I guess… I’ll just write it in a card and hand it to him… Keep it private instead and say the traditional vows out loud in front of guests.

20 more days… It’s gonna go by fast I’m sure. But I really wish it were all planned already and it was here next weekend. Can’t wait to see my friends and family altogether in one room.