I’m sitting here waiting in my parent’s room for Nam to come find me. I’m by myself and the hustle and bustle going on outside is making me anxious. I want to be a part of it–but this time here alone is good. I get to contemplate things. Gotta be careful though! No crying.

Huge huge procrastinator I am. I just spent the last 25 minutes going through Instagram and commenting on random photos, listening to music, and not motivated to work on this wedding program I’m supposed to design for my wedding in one week. Kind of burnt out… but finally finally finally kind of feeling a little bit excited for this wedding. 

With Thanksgiving coming up and people expressing what they are grateful for, it’s made me realize that I’m completely grateful for the people in my life right now who have stepped up for me. Crazy what it all takes… but thankful that I finally realize. Isn’t that what life’s all about? Living and realizing and understanding and being grateful and appreciative? Being positive and looking forward to more great things to come.

I simply cannot wait.

By the way, totally have been missing this stream of conscious writing. This is what I needed.

They say the happiest day of a girl’s life is her wedding day. Really? That’s one very specific day of all the days of my life so far (not to mention all the days of my long life that is yet to come). I’m so glad I read this article. Hopefully I’ll remember this post from this moment to next Saturday when I’m feeling the pressure. Specifically, I’ll remember that it’s okay that I am not feeling what I expect I should be feeling.

http://www.weddingbee.com/2012/11/02/feeling-anxious-on-wedding-day/